Well, the other thing that has developed in the last 2 months, is a new found respect and attention to the power of my thoughts…
Sometimes I think, I think too much… See! That in itself is already a paradox… thinking about trying not to think too much, definately not something you’d want to think about otherwise you’d think too much about not thinking… huh? *head hurts*
Well, the last couple of months, I’ve been checking myself and looking at the things I’ve been doing so far in the last 10 years of my life. That’s how long I’ve been working. Evaluating.. the works of my life. I’d spare you the details.. but know that there has been so much new experiences, ie. marriage, career building, fatherhood, starting a home etc… All the things that I now, really care about.
But, there is the flip side of it, there always is, the things that I’ve left behind, ie. carefreeness, partying, being irresponsible and having to be forgiven for it, being single… etc.
Call it early mid-life crisis… (which really shouldn’t be happening to me), but letting my thoughts run-away with those really didn’t help.
Well, things are better now.. in fact, perhaps better than it has been for a while now. I may have asked myself those questions to just check, but the answers to those has created a whole new way in which I look at my life.
I realise when you move on, you create new things and experiences in your life that truly meaningful. Don’t look back… don’t look back because the life that you have left behind, is not yours any more to take back. It has done it’s work, to teach you, educate you and to fill you with a past that is rich and full of truly wonderful experiences. And you bring this forth to a new life that is even more wonderful. You learn to look at what you have and simply love life for them!
So, the last 2 months, I guess I grew a little more.. in my thinking. 🙂